Tuesday, 7 July 2015

Post No1

7th of July 20013

This is my first post of my new blog which has the aim to help me let out details about my paranoid life. Possibly as a form of catharsis...

Anyway I woke up today to grimmer than a few days ago, but similar to about a week a go, I am grimly paranoid and fear for the future of kind people that maybe are too few with power on this planet... 

I have at this point of my paranoia reached a level where although I live in fear I am strangely numb to it and try not to overreact to and still disparity hope that worse hasn't and won't happen to at least me anyways... Please excuse my seemingly selfish nature... But, if the world that supposedly only exists within my mind, is realer than what I'm told it is, than I have so far, at times been possibly too Altruistic... Courageous or somekind of Fearless... 

Otherwise, I hope that that no one will edit my blogs for any kind of reasons, will not happen. So far I am quite sure that has happened... How and why, that's what's relative... Otherwise unless it's my mind playing tricks on me, AGAIN... every time I believe on has occurred, the effort to re-edit them is too vaste! At least for what ever my current and even at the best of my aptitude, can be...

Again as mentioned in prior blogs gone and forgotten or not, I have a strong belief the existence of witchcraft... As for what IS or IS NOT possible I am not quite sure... BUT, the limit might be the borders of the imagination (within boundaries of what's relative) of the human mind, or possibly God's (which according me these days is the creator of Life on earth) limitations of that sort.

Otherwise I will add that I am no longer a hetero or any kind or mild homosexual(lesbian) of any sort. And that although I would like to live with out the tubic part of what ever is left of my genitalia. I have NOT EVER been interested in changing sexes. Especially since the only kind of sex than I can bare at this point is Masterbation, I like my clitoris way too much to want to become a man, and otherwise I'll add that I painfully hate the impression of looking like a man because my dismorpho-phobia (of body and face) ... So again absolutely do not want to become a man in any kind of way... I even often consdier myself to be a male homo who finally got it's wish and reincarnated as a woman... And am therefor no longer live the burden of negative prejudices relating being feminine. Even if sometimes I have a tom-boy personality... So I guess not quite 100% a woman... How Ironic given I am quite certain that  even my current anatomy makes me unable to be a mother...

Any help regarding surgical ways to live without the tube part is more than welcome.

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